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Day 3 was a disaster. I had a headache all day. Didnt exercise. Just didnt feel good. Ate a lot.  I started in here a few days ago and logged in 185….Saw 183.3 yesterday. How? I have no idea.  Halloween has been tough with candy, cookies, cake, etc.,  My goal yesterday was to step up from the day before. I didnt do that.  So basically I am starting over today. I guess that is what you have to do, keep restarting, because if you dont, you quit. And quitting is not an option. I am trying to stay focused on getting healthy.  I did drink 2 bottles of water today. (I never drink water) and took vitamins (I never take vitamins) and I got my flu shot.  Weekends have always been tough for me. So I am pushing on. If I can do this…..anyone can do this.  I will be back in here again to log in tomorrow.  I am going to see this through. No matter how many bad days…I am going to stay on top of it. No matter what. (Saw in a magazine a new show is coming on TV….”RUBY”….The description is “She doesnt know how she got to 487 pounds. But she knows its killing her.” Series Premiere Nov. 9th on Style.  See a sneak preview ono mystyle.com.     

I am going to stay committed, and if that means blogging in here every day. Every day that is what I will do. Yesterday was  a start.  DAY1…..I made a choice to get healthy. I did my work out dvd.  Joined this support group.  Made time for me yesterday…pampering myself with foot massage and then I went horse back riding.  Food Choices werent the best. (Why are there so many fast food places?!)  And I only had one glass of water.  But I am back for Day 2.  Goal for today…step it up from yesterday. I am taking small steps.   Thanks to everyone who took those small steps before me.  I will be reading your blogs today to give me the inspiration I need to get to Day 3.  ((Big Hugs))

When I step on the scale, and I see the numbers start to soar, I jump off. That arrow of doom pointing to many failures of dieting that have become obvious in this state of realization. I just dont want to see it.  I havent exercised in a really long time and I am to lazy to keep routines up and I love fast food.  My life is a mess when it comes to being healthy.  I hurt all over. Body aches. Tired. Depressed.  Low self esteem.  Just miserable. Today I pulled out a Leslie Sansone DVD. I kept up for the most part but wanted to quit. Worked out until I broke a sweat. Past the 1 mile walk but ended short before the 2 mile. When will that moment occur, when I decide to change my life for the better?  Leslie Sansone saiod today on the DVD,  “You have a choice how you age”. She is right, but the choice seems like a lot of work. A lot of committment and a lot of willpower.  I just dont know if I have a reason to have that.  DAY 1.